11/10/10 The Stand Still

I began to pursue a relationship with God in April of 2009. Since then there have been HUGE changes in my life. I have stopped drinking, smoking, partying etc. I've made many changes to the way I was living. There was such an obviouse transformation, that I could physically see every time I jumped over a hurdle. I was visibly different.

 After all of the behavioral changes and all of the apparent changes, I felt like I had hit the clutch and gone into 1st gear. For a moment I felt like I had done something wrong. I felt as though God was done. I felt stuck. My problem was that my life had changed so quickly and drastically, that when it was time to concentrate on the inside I felt like God had made a screeching hault. I kept asking him, "Lord what am I doing wrong? What do you need?" Like the awesome, loving God that our Heavenly Father is, He answered me. He told me now that I was done with my foolishness and acting up, He wanted to deal with me. The real me. He wanted to deal with me inside, my heart, my mind. He told me it was time to give Him my all. I realized there was so much I had to change. I mean SO much!

A few Sundays ago, Bishop said that sometimes God will take you off the main road to get you acquainted with Him. Here I am. I am in the process of serious change. Off the main road. Waiting to get acquainted with Him. Waiting to get acquainted with me... You are welcomed to come along for a ride. I cant promise it'll always be pretty but it will be real.