He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10
I had so many questions. I had so many doubts. I was curious but uncertainty was clouding my mind. There was the ultimate answer. He was here all along. Speaking, waiting for me to respond.
That same night she told me that it wouldn't be easy all the time. That there would be times were it would be very hard to do more than just listen to His voice. She told me to make sure that I obeyed, because it would be well worth it.
I heard Him speak to me as clear as day just a few days ago. All I did was obey. I didn't ask why me, or why He chose to do things the way He did? Why does it matter? I just followed instructions.
The decisions I've made have not been difficult ones. What's been difficult is the process. I feel like these are baby steps. Small decisions with a lot of meaning. Wanting to hear "Wow! Job well done. God bless you! That is awesome. I pray that He leads and guides you." When you hear the opposite..."WHAT?! God???" it hurts. I wish people would direct their doubts to God. Ask for clarity for themselves. I guess that all comes with the territory.
I am slowly learning to hold on to His promises. Not to go by what I see. To hold on to what He has told me. Not to be dismayed by what I hear.
God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good? Numbers 23:19
I trust Him. I just want to trust Him in peace. I don't want any interference in the line between me and God. I want His commands to be the only thing that moves me. I KNOW He is God. Its the stillness part I am still working on. Father show me how to be still... <3
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